Tired...

Do you ever get to the point when you're just tired of it? And what's "it"? Everything. You don't want to move, think or breath you just live and that's about it. Because you do it without thinking but other than that you no longer want to care. You're sick of being happy or worried. You just want to be...

That's the kind of mood I'm in right now. Just let me be.

boyfriends are fun to talk to about random things

boyfriend:
have it checked out i guess

tiffie:
hahaha
only if it hurts
haha
if not there's no point
dont need to pull it out
:)
and its fun to play with
hahaha
omg
i HOPE its a tooth

boyfriend:
lol

tiffie:
its like
____^____
hahahaha
if you look at it
upside down
hahahaha
its this little pokey thing
hahahaha
so i tickle it with my tongue

boyfriend:
hahah
stop tickling it

tiffie:
hehe
its kinda fun
i make a weird face when i do it tho
mwahahaha
im playing with myself

Guys are weird...

There's this one guy who has been continuously asking me out since our Frosh yr in college. That was 5.5 years ago. Fall 2001, and I graduted early too. And to this day he still asks me out. I even blocked him for awhile, but then I figured he gave up. Did he? Nope. Now he IMs me at least once every day or two to tell me he wants to see me. How beautiful I am. He asks me if I'm single yet. If I'm married yet, etc.. etc.. etc.. etc...

Just now:

xxxxxxxxxx (9:28:44 PM): you are gorgeous

Is he just plain retarded? I think so. He's seen me go thru 3 boyfriends already. Ugh. What a freak job...

How come the ones we want we can never get and the wants we don't want we can't get rid of? To him, it doesn't matter whether I'm with someone or not. He always assumed we were supposed to be something and he gets mad at me for never going for it. WTF. Odd odd boy.

BMIs

N.Y. considers banning ultrathin fashion models

NEW YORK (CNN) -- A New York City Council member Thursday proposed pushing sponsors to ban abnormally thin models from walking New York Fashion Week's runways.

Council member Gail Brewer wants fashion houses to ban any model with a body mass index of less than 18.5 -- the cutoff for the World Health Organization's definition of "normal."

Brewer said she wants models to be educated on nutrition and designers to encourage healthful lifestyles. (Watch stick-thin models strut the runway )

"We want the designers to offer some clothes that are a little bit more robust," she also told CNN, "and we certainly don't want people under the age of 16 to be modeling."

Madrid Fashion Week set a BMI limit of 18 in September, and Italian designers in December agreed to health and age guidelines for runway models, The Associated Press reported.
On Wednesday, Assemblyman Jose Rivera of the Bronx introduced a resolution in the state legislature to generate standards to protect the health of teenage models and entertainers, AP reported.

The Council of Fashion Designers of America issued recommendations in January to help bulimia, anorexia and other health problems among models.

Brazilian model Ana Carolina Reston died in November at age 21. She was 5 feet 8 inches tall and weighed just 88 pounds, for a BMI of 13.4.

WHO defines normal BMI as 18.5 to 24.9.

"Being exposed to an environment with a lot of emphasis on thinness can put someone with a predisposition to eating disorders in a very high-risk situation," Dr. Sharon Alger-Mayer, an associate professor of medicine at Albany Medical Center, told AP.

Copyright 2007 CNN. All rights reserved.This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten, or redistributed. Associated Press contributed to this report.

Source: CNN

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As much as I like it that runways are trying to make images of women "healthier" this whole BMI banning is kind of silly. Simply just say that if you look to skinny, you can't go on the show. BMI measures weight to height. Not necessarily muscle & body fat. (Hello, muscle weighs more than fat) I, personally am in the 17s when it comes to BMI (currently around 17.4-17.7) and I am NOT deathly skinny or even close to modelesque. Silly, no? IN FACT, I'd probably have to lose some more weight just to be considered. Therefore, dumb.

Obviously when a model lives off of lettuce and diet coke (OR the real coke haha) that's an unhealthy lifestyle but I also see NOTHING wrong with letting a girl who is NATURALLY really skinny who IS healthy on the runway... they should start banning models who have eating disorders and use drugs and diet pills to stay thin off the runways, those are the ones who are giving off a bad body image to young women all around. But then again, while I like my Kate Moss', I also LOVE my Victoria Secrets angels... yum!

Women in general need better "body image role models"... I noticed that up and coming actresses, singers, women in the lime light slowly gravitate to losing weight and being skinny. All of the more "thick" or "voluptous" women who are also seen as beautiful, seem to be older, more mature women. Catherine Zeta Jones, Kate Winslet, Salma Hayek, etc.. all beautiful gorgeous women. Latina & African women seem to be more accepted as they are when beautiful and curvey than an Asian woman would be. You don't even SEE "voluptous" Asian women in the entertainment business.... rareeeeely! And all I can think of right now is the comedian, M. Cho. *argh* LAME!

OK, I'll continue this rant later, I have work that needs to be done.

Annoying Boring or Boringly Annoying?

I've come to the realization on another reason of "why I am the way I am."

I get annoyed easily. Just as easily as I get bored. Let me explain.

Now, I'm a nice person. I give everyone many chances and many benefits of the doubt. I hate how me being nice automatically makes people assume I'm a fake and the rare few times that I'm mean they automatically call me a bitch like I've been one my whole life. Not that I really care.. it's just annnoying..

Ok. Onwards to annoyances and boredom. I hate it when people suddenly become a significant other. Friends aren't supposed to be like significant others. I hate people who nag me, especially girls who suddenly act like I'm their boyfriends. Don't call me 50x in a row and come stalking me. It's creepy. I don't have a penis. I won't become your sugar daddy. And no, I don't want to date you.

I hate it when people tell me everything and anything and suddenly make me their personal pocketbook/diary. Do I look like your personal assistant? Do I look obligated to do everything and anything for you? Or listen to every whine bitch and moan? No.

I don't like it when people come on too aggressive or think they're always right. Overly opinionated and stubborn is annoying. So are people on the other end of the spectrum. BORING.

Just because I'm nice, don't automatically assume I'll be your best friend either. People who become my best friend within the next 10min is really scary. SCARY. S-C-A-R-Y... and annoying. I'll drop you like it's hot. And if we're walking down the street or sitting across from each other eating, and it's one of those quiet, awkward moment type things? Annoyingly boring. I like people with amazing perky personalities.

Which is probably why I don't date and why it's easy for me to cut people out of my life.

It has nothing to do with me being stuck up or anything, but if you annoy me and/or I get bored of you, seriously, what's the point?! I know that sounds completely annoyingly bitchy but whatever. It's my life and I live it once.

Ok. So maybe it is a slightly bitch kind of thing of me to be. I'll roll my eyes, and pout my lips and wish and pray that you'd disappear. I'll flare my nostrils and everything. I'll even do the glazed over eyes and big toothy smile for awhile.

I used to care if people knew I didn't like them. Now, I don't. Cuz a lot of people don't like me and voice it all the time (and wait, do I care? Do I even know you? You are nonexistent to me) so why should I go around always trying to please people who say enough shit about me as it is?

And when it comes to cutting people off, I'm pretty cold about it. Bad friend? Bye. Bad breakup? What's your name again? Also a reason why I don't date. Guys get annoying or boring to me too easily. I like guys who constantly and consistently keep my interest. I eat too much sugar and drink too much caffeine, it makes sense I need someone to catch my attention since I'm always A.D.D.

Anyways. So, if you're in my life consistently it means that, you're kind of a big deal. Which means, good friends & boyfriend? You guys are really something ♥

List of randomness..

I started to write an introduction yesterday but then it got boring. I'm getting bored of myself and the same old introductions, so I'll just do it a different way and tell you a little bit about me ADD style.

Random Facts
(cuz they're funner than introductions)

♥ I guess some basics are in order, I'm 22, I was born on August03 and I graduated from RPI Dec'04 with a major in EMAC, concentration in graphic designer.
♥ If I could have any job in the world, I'd be a... fashion stylist for the stars.. (minus the crystal meth, haha Zoe reference)
♥ I love stars.. and hearts
♥ I am obsessed with all things pink.. and hello kitty
♥ I wish I was Asian Barbie, so I pretend I am, and I dress up EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. I'm not the type of girl who goes nasty, stops wearing makeup and just wears sweats when I get a boyfriend or depressed or anything like that.
♥ I love food. Esp. Sushi & candy
♥ I love to travel. I've been to most states, I've been on 3 different carribbean cruises.. taiwan, japan, and I lived in Sydney for a month.
♥ I eat too much ice cream even tho I'm lactose intolerant (don't worry I don't get exploding diarrhea)
♥ I'm spoiled, but I'm not a spoiled brat. (I'm an only child but my parents still disciplined me well)
♥ I love cupcake porn and flickr is my beloved pornmaster, but I rarely eat them. Maybe one or two a year...
♥ I used to live in New Mexico
♥ I never owned any black clothing until the past few months and now I have a closetfull of LBDs..
♥ I LOVE making lists..
♥ I also like ending sentences with a "..." cuz how can you truly ever end anything?
♥ One of my dreams is to have an apartment in SOHO, nyc...
♥ I love sarcasm.
♥ I'm convinced I was born a blonde so I dye it to match my personality.
♥ I started blogging online in HighSchool and started my personal camsite in the year 2000.
♥ I don't date. I only have serious relationships. And as of now, I've had 4, and I've only ever dated one person and that was only for a week, and he turned out to be a freak, therefore supporting my thing with why I don't date.
♥ I have a serious shopping problem. I see, I like, I buy. But it's all from my wallet, so beat that bitches! (Don't EVER call me a golddigger or I will beat you down! If I was one, I would've already settled for some rich business man who spoils me to death...)
♥ I have a thing for cocky guys, esp. really tall ones *ahem* anyone hear 6'4"-6'5" *melts*
♥ I love accents on guys, esp. Irish ones (I don't know why)
♥ If I never get married, I aspire to be an old cat lady. And to impregnant myself with some hot tall blonde white guy so I can have a cute mixed baby.
♥ I love to bake and cook but never for myself, I think it's a waste of food and time if it's just for me.
♥ I love to overindulge in life. Why not? You only HAVE one life.
♥ I don't do drugs, but I do consume massive amounts of alcohol. I'm a LUSH
♥ I love horror movies and scary rollercoasters.
♥ I cry in movies.. and books... and I ALWAYS cry if anything has to do with parents/old people dying.
♥ I like kissing cute girls when I'm drunk.
♥ I always have a stomachache
♥ My ice cream ALWAYS must have rainbow sprinkles on it. No exceptions!

I'm bored. Maybe I'll add on later. If you wanna know anything else just ask. I'm hungry...

Oh.

♥ I'm ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS hungry. And I can never say no to dessert haha!

Ha!

I started writing an introduction but then I got bored. I'm bored of introductions. If you wanna learn about me, it's easy just find me thru the name "misstiffie" on google. I'm on facebook. I'm on myspace. I'm on xanga. I'm EVERYWHERE. But this is where I am at this moment. I'm just sitting here, drinking a beer and trying to relax because for most of the day I'm always so stressed. Either from work or from other unmentionable "sources".

Fear the evilchin for you may grow one overnight and lose your neck completely.

I'll post my introduction up at work tomorrow when I'm procrastinating and thinking about what to eat for lunch.

How do you like your cupcakes?

Being an.. "out-of-the-closet" cupcake porn fan I couldn't help but squeal over these...: (they may not be the real thing, but just as satisfying to look at)



stolen from amigurumikingdom a la flickr

And so, with this entry, marks the beginning of a new... er, beginning of two angry cupcake girls. And we're pink. So. Yeah.